Okay so Ive had a deviant art account for how long now?
Almost 3 years thanks to Lolo hehe.
and i don't think Ive ever had a serious journal entry.
My life doesn't really let me talk seriously without being depressed,
but tonight (or this morning is you may) is different.
I feel alright.

So lets get this underway.

You have been seeing a lack of new writes from me cause Ive lost my muse.
I get the urge to write, but once i get to paper it fades faster than it came.
I also have been feeling like im losing touch with a lot of people.
mostly its my fault, me being paranoid and/or anxious, making things awkward and inevitably uncomfortable.
I feel like im losing the connection with my best friend, and i don't know why.
Am i changing?
or am i just becoming myself?
Those are questions that keep me awake at night.
Ive been trying to span out and make some new friends, and reconnect with old ones that i may have pushed away.
But still i feel anxious and im having a hard time.
Ive been visited by my old friend panic again recently, and hes seem to taken a liking to my head.
I cant explain what causes it, and if i could i would be rid of it by now.
but i really cant let this stop me...
feeling alone in a crowded room... yeah you all know what i mean.

So yeah, im still around and about,
just muse-less and anxious.
I still like to talk and anyone who is willing is a welcome conversation waiting to happen.
just message me if you got my number, or note me if you want it lol.

-sigh-